Today was again, truly awesome and I am happy to report Kate is still no where to be found! Many seem to have exact dates and times that they can hold up and say: ” I woke up on such and such date”, that is not something known, it was much more gradual for this being. And it seems like as more of the awareness resides, the less I know about anything and the more nobody I become which is really cool. Its very refreshing to actually not know stuff and be a nobody!! It allows for a limitless abyss. And then a question arises: “What do we really know?” This seems to be the million dollar question as of late. But I digress, back to the dirt! Approximately 5 hours, give or take, were spent clearing out all the debris from remnants of last year’s epic failure of a flower/vegetable garden. This being my first time gardening, LOL, since the apparent awakening it was really frickin’ cool! I discovered a new “aha” moment too. Nature kicks major pa-tootie. All the years growing up as a landscaper’s daughter, I always did the work because it was an expectation. And even up until last year (when I turned 38 and have been out of my parents house since 17), I did the work still because that’s what people do in the Spring, they plant shit! So there was the same behavior template laid out in front of me. I immediately began laughing at the memory of last years struggles. All the resistance against the weather, then the endless frustration about the deer, birds, squirrels, chipmunks, ground hogs, mold, and bugs. At one point there was an actual belief that the squirrels and birds were deliberately messing with me, as they took turns digging up all my new seedlings. I remember being convinced that it was all a CONSPIRACY!!!! Yes, I had issues and that is absurd, but also a beautiful example of “Victim Mode”. Today though spawned a new revelation! Here I was (apparently) doing all this work and it was completely effortless. I stayed in neutral and unattached to everything as it happened. Completely aware at all times. Robins were feeding on worms that I had uncovered; Phil (short for Phylis, our very pregnant ground hog came over to visit for a bit & munched on some nearby greens); squirrels were doing there usual race and chase, and here I was like in a scene from Snow White, singing and whistling while I worked. No fear, no anticipation, not even thoughts arising, just presence. Never have I felt so completely connected to Mother Earth and all her inhabitants! At one point I actually sat in the center of the soon to be flower garden, grabbed and held fistfuls of dirt and rocks, and weeds. WEEDS!!!! I enjoyed pulling weeds!!! Ironically, I even felt high and still do but do not take drugs! How is this possible? To feel “high on life” but no chemicals in the body? Is it possible to become addicted to the NOW? Not sure, but I have to say, being one with it all IS super cool and highly recommended! All in all, today was another magnificent day and the death of kate and the life left behind of drama is not missed one bit! Today’s most magnificent discovery was this: DIRT IS TRULY GOOD! Stay tuned for more observations of living in the present moment! Truth, Freedom, Happiness & Joy to ALL! -Kate/ I am signing off…..