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NO-ME!

It has been quite a while since words came from these fingertips… And as life happens, there is less and less attachment to all things, thoughts, beliefs, etc… When emptiness is, fullness just happens. Holding on to expectation, projection, and perception are the mind’s minions… Judgement, opinion/complaining, pride are the ego’s tools holding us hostage in an illusion that doesn’t exist…

Live life and drop the fear as that is also the mind playing tricks… And remember there is no one, no body, NO thought that ever did anything… All is energy rising, falling … being.

Listen more! Laugh more! Love More! And damn it, just let go! Free falling is the only way to fly!

Kate/ I am  signing out….    🙂


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THE BIG TIDY UP

When I was a kid, I can remember a children’s book I owned entitled: “”The Big Tidy Up”. It was well used and very worn. There were several torn pages and the inside front cover had green crayon scribbled on it by it’s previous owner. Despite its wear and tear I always remember it being a favorite read. Essentially the book was about a little girl that took part in the cleaning up and cleaning out of her very messy bedroom. I can remember using the book as a step by step guide when I was told to clean my room. I would actually follow each page like an instructional manual with slight adaptation to each listed task. In fond memory of that book comes the title of my latest article. During Spring, many seem to participate in a frenzy of cleaning projects. Sometimes the projects are small, such as, going through closets and donating items. Other projects involve bigger and more organized efforts like renting dumpsters and cleaning out basements. Ultimately though, all cleaning projects have one thing in common, creating space. When the desire appears to grow, change , or evolve we ultimately need space in order to fulfill this transformation process. The same can be true of AWAKENING. Everything must be cleaned out in order to create space. Our entire lives we collect concepts, thoughts, beliefs, and opinions about everything including and not limited to people, places, and things.  But when we awaken to the truth of what we really are everything changes radically and it all falls away. Shiny materialistic items lose there luster. Earned awards, degrees, and certificates of accomplishment once revered and coveted are now just pieces of paper hanging on the wall in glass frames. Reputation is not cared or bothered with and even money is no longer a concern. All of these things once so important literally fall away. Identification is no longer needed. Trying to realize, understand, and accept this when you are still spiritually seeking is like trying to explain the concept of fire to someone that has never seen it before….not really possible. Best advice I ever heard was from Jed McKenna, “Come see it for yourself!”

Truth, Freedom, Happiness & Joy to ALL

~Kate/ I am 😀


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DIRT IS TRULY GOOD!

Today was again, truly awesome and I am happy to report Kate is still no where to be found! Many seem to have exact dates and times that they can hold up and say: ” I woke up on such and such date”, that is not something known, it was much more gradual for this being. And it seems like as more of the awareness resides, the less I know about anything and the more nobody I become which is really cool. Its very refreshing to actually not know stuff and be a nobody!! It allows for a limitless abyss. And then a question arises: “What do we really know?” This seems to be the million dollar question as of late. But I digress, back to the dirt! Approximately 5 hours, give or take, were spent clearing out all the debris from remnants of last year’s epic failure of a flower/vegetable garden. This being my first time gardening, LOL, since the apparent awakening it was really frickin’ cool! I discovered a new “aha” moment too. Nature kicks major pa-tootie. All the years growing up as a landscaper’s daughter, I always did the work because it was an expectation. And even up until last year (when I turned 38 and have been out of my parents house since 17), I did the work still because that’s what people do in the Spring, they plant shit! So there was the same behavior template laid out in front of me. I immediately began laughing at the memory of last years struggles. All the resistance against the weather, then the endless frustration about the deer, birds, squirrels, chipmunks, ground hogs, mold, and bugs. At one point there was an actual belief that the squirrels and birds were deliberately messing with me, as they took turns digging up all my new seedlings. I remember being convinced that it was all a CONSPIRACY!!!! Yes, I had issues and that is absurd, but also a beautiful example of “Victim Mode”. Today though spawned a new revelation! Here I was (apparently) doing all this work and it was completely effortless. I stayed in neutral and unattached to everything as it happened. Completely aware at all times. Robins were feeding on worms that I had uncovered; Phil (short for Phylis, our very pregnant ground hog came over to visit for a bit & munched on some nearby greens); squirrels were doing there usual race and chase, and here I was like in a scene from Snow White, singing and whistling while I worked. No fear, no anticipation, not even thoughts arising, just presence. Never have I felt so completely connected to Mother Earth and all her inhabitants! At one point I actually sat in the center of the soon to be flower garden, grabbed and held fistfuls of dirt and rocks, and weeds. WEEDS!!!! I enjoyed pulling weeds!!! Ironically, I even felt high and still do but do not take drugs! How is this possible? To feel “high on life” but no chemicals in the body? Is it possible to become addicted to the NOW? Not sure, but I have to say, being one with it all IS super cool and highly recommended! All in all, today was another magnificent day and the death of kate and the life left behind of drama is not missed one bit! Today’s most magnificent discovery was this: DIRT IS TRULY GOOD! Stay tuned for more observations of living in the present moment! Truth, Freedom, Happiness & Joy to ALL! -Kate/ I am signing off…..


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What is Relinquishing?

A tale of what led Kate to no-mind, no-thing and no-one.

Andi (spiritual teacher)

In 1993, I had the distinct  pleasure of meeting a woman that became my first spiritual teacher and changed my mind about all of life! Her name was Francis M. Watkins and was best known by her nickname Andi.

Andi was an extremely amazing woman. She was a magnificent artist, illustrator and scholar. She earned her PhD at Cornell University.  She retired in Boynton Beach, FL and later moved to Edgewater, FL with her husband. She loved animals and nature and was awesome at directly speaking out about the illusions of life and suffering. She taught me how to meditate and later how to RELINQUISH ALL FEAR. 

Relinquishing can best be defined as the process of detachment of conditioned beliefs and behavior templates. Relinquishing is not a religion or a spiritual practice but a methodology used to directly breakdown falsehoods or illusion of “I”. Some prefer using the word “ego” or “mind made self”. Ultimately Relinquishing is a tool used in the process of detaching from suffering.

Through the relinquishing process four things occur.

REALIZING, UNDERSTANDING, ACCEPTING and “I AM”

What does this mean? Simply summed up that ALL  of suffering is FEAR. It is ALL mind-made/man-made .  FEAR is fiction. It is created within  the conditioned mind. This conditioning begins when we are born and continues until we pass on.

How does Relinquishing work? Relinquishing works by deconstructing conditioned behaviors, ideas, concepts, and thoughts (essentially  all the crap we believe and allow to shape who we are). All these concepts that we allow to perpetuate our suffering are simply rooted in fear. To utilize a favorite movie quote: “Never underestimate my sneakiness”:

Fear truly has many many disguises and here are some very common ones referred to as G.R.S.P.’s  (pronounced  “gursps”)

  • GUILT
  • REMORSE
  • SELF-PITY
  • SELF-PUNISHMENT
  • SELF-SHAME

And let’s not forget about these other very popular fear-disguises known as H.H.P.’s

  • HELPLESSNESS
  • HOPELESS-NESS
  • POWERLESS-NESS

So what now? Well lets get on with it then…

Here is your very first relinquishing. Are you ready? The entire purpose of this blog is intended  to blow all minds away!

“Thank you I AM for denying me the knowledge on the first, best, optimal way to proceed, Thank you I AM”

Signing out for now… 

Kate/ I AM